My Confession

Jaibala/ November 24, 2015/ Poetry/ 16 comments

Words always fail me when doubt appears,

A happy smile, behind are tears,

The struggle to find those answers mine,

Sometimes I wonder if it’s worth the while,

A Misstep, Mishap, a small Miscalculation,

My biggest fears, part of my adjudication,

Venture not, stay in,

Comfort and knowing are on this side

These walls you built, my safety,

They are all closing, suffocating,

So weak, I feel I am all alone,

So strong, deal with anything on my own,

I speak, you hear, never listen,

I dream, you never see my plans to action,

True, honest, almost an obsession,

Headstrong, Adamant, Stubborn devotion,

In their shadows lies my confession,

Within me is always your affliction

Within me also your affection.

 

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Academically a Microbiologist, I am a Web Columnist for popular magazines and websites, Freelance Writer and a Blogger. Words define me and writing and reading compete to be the love of my life. My biggest belief is that there is something good in everything and I always looks to highlight the best in things. Creative writing is my forte.You can reach me by dropping a mail at contact@jaibalarao.com

16 Comments

  1. Very touching Jai!

    These walls you built, my safety,
    They are all closing, suffocating,

    Something I have faced too…
    Aditi Kaushiva recently posted…#SaturdayWordplay 10 – FrissonMy Profile

    1. Thanks so much Aditi. Sometimes people who build the walls, do not realise how we suffocate within them. Sometimes we do it to oursleves too.

  2. Also your affliction and affection.. lovely words.

    1. Thank You so much Richa πŸ™‚ So glad to have you here

  3. you speak, we will listen
    Alone you might be – but never truly alone
    Friends have your back.. your words, your fears is understood
    your confession is safe… in my heart
    You have a friend in me who will listen to everything you have to say – with words and with your heart

    You are never truly alone.

    hugs
    Pixie recently posted…Why I should just write and what made me smile todayMy Profile

    1. Hugs Pix. True I am never truly alone. <3

  4. Very touching …hope the message gets across 😊

    1. Thank You Alok. I doubt it, but one can hope πŸ™‚

  5. Doubts make even the most assured feet stumble, I think. The contrasts here are poignant. Loneliness can be both depressing and self-assuring, and yeah, another place for doubt I guess.

    “I speak, you hear, never listen,
    I dream, you never see my plans to action,”

    Though seeing Sid’s comment makes me wonder if it was addressed to someone, this feels like a battle with our own ghosts somewhat. Like a part of you speaks and sees those dreams, but when it comes to putting it into reality, there seems to be the other part that just doubts and stumbles and doesn’t help motivate to put it to action.

    PS: I still disagree with your opinion of your poem.

    1. True though this wasn’t written from that perspective, but your interpretation holds true. The blocks and the fears within us pulling us back and making us doubt ourselves, and feel alone.

      PS: Let us agree to disagree on this one.

  6. Very touching and heartfelt lines, Jaibala.
    Wonder if the person who it is meant for will understand πŸ™‚
    Sid recently posted…Clutter, Declutter and Black HolesMy Profile

    1. Thanks You Sid, you and I both know that wont be happening anytime soon.

  7. Poignant lines. Mistakes and setbacks do throw us off I guess. And then the walls feel as if they are closing in.
    Rachna recently posted…Call me S!My Profile

    1. Yes, especially if we are being judged for every move we make. It can be quite suffocating. Thank you Rachna

  8. Thought-provoking. Resonates with many of us, I am sure….the walls we build around ourselves. Beautiful words πŸ™‚

    1. Thank You. Most of us surround ourselves with walls either knowingly or unknowingly.

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