Jaibala/ January 28, 2016/ Musings/ 12 comments

If you don’t believe in yourself then no one will. As real as this statement is, the truth is journey on the path of self belief is riddled with doubt, detractors, put downers and fear. And it is safe to assume that for most people it is difficult to immunize themselves against the negative. I have always believed in myself – but it is only partly true. The whole truth is I struggle with moment of self doubt, guilt and self ridicule even more than moments of belief.

Being the over thinker that I am fear and self doubt are my basic mode of functioning, and add to that insecurities, and that moment right there is the moment of The Pit. The worst I feel about my choices and what I am doing. It does pass eventually, but the Pit is not a great place to be in. Being in the pit takes a mental and emotional toll. It is when as a creator I am the most vulnerable and probably my resolve the weakest.

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And yet I keep going. What keeps me going, wanting to write one word after another, when I don’t even think I am good enough? The one word answer to that is Passion.

Passion is what has taken a lot of people and made their lives better. Passion, once it sets foot in our lives there is no turning back or even looking back. Passion – the driving force behind happily spent sleepless nights, and foodless days. Passion, which is often mistaken for everything else but what is – A pure unadulterated craving to maniacally follow your obsession.


Passion, it lies in all of us, sleeping… waiting… and though unwanted… unbidden… it will stir… open its jaws and howl. It speaks to us… guides us… passion rules us all, and we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love… the clarity of hatred… and the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion maybe we’d know some kind of peace… but we would be hollow… Empty rooms shuttered and dank. Without passion we’d be truly dead.”
— Joss Whedon


Passion is what makes it hard for me to settle for mediocrity. The reason I want to type every word perfect, the cause behind the coder’s endless hours of perfect code, and that perfect financial report. Passion is not about doing different things; it is about doing things differently and never settling for anything but the very best you can give.

You don’t have choose ‘out of the box’ to be passionate. You just have to make the same choice all over again, even in the moments of despair. Your Soul just has to fire up every time you do something thing. That is how you know what you are passionate about! Remember someone can be as passionate about maths as I am about writing, and someone can be as fired up about balancing the account book as someone is about creating the next craft project.

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Passion is what makes you realize your true value and hate the fact that someone under rates your work. It makes you care about what you are doing enough to be proud and stand tall. Remember Passion is about you. What lights you up like nothing else, what makes you chug on even when giving up or giving in seems the rational option. It is what makes your life bearable and unbearable at the same time. It is not a cake walk, but passion is what makes you ready for all the hard work and the moments of Pits that you may face.

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About Jaibala

Academically a Microbiologist, I am a Web Columnist for popular magazines and websites, Freelance Writer and a Blogger. Words define me and writing and reading compete to be the love of my life. My biggest belief is that there is something good in everything and I always looks to highlight the best in things. Creative writing is my forte.You can reach me by dropping a mail at


  1. I think I have re-discovered my passion. It was hiding for a while, but the year 2015 was a year of self-revelations. a year of re-discovery. 🙂
    That was a beautiful post Jai. resonated quite well with me.
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    1. I am so glad Pix, that you re discovered your passion and did not let it hide for too long. Remaining passionate is a process of rediscovering and re igniting your passion each day.

  2. Without passion, what’s the point of life? This one feeling can move mountains. Sadly I find it lacking very much in our children. I have tried to analyze that too….it is probably because of their complacency in life, maybe because of the over-protective, over-nurturing role we are playing as parents. Wonderful post Jai 🙂
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    1. I totally agree Kala, without Passion life just about existing and not living. As far as young people go, I think they are more passionate and aware than us. Although there might be some who, still haven’t figured out their passion. Well I figured out mine after I had lived 3 decades on this planet, So I just think they must be on the path to finding out.

  3. Passion is the fire that keeps us warm-blooded, alive and kicking to carve a niche of our own.
    While it drives, I think it is the sole reason why a living being thrives.
    Very inspiring 🙂
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    1. Thank You so much ME for such wonderful words describing the strength of the emotion that is Passion.

  4. Passion for me is writing beautiful Software code. It does make me happier. I loved the way you have put it in words.

    1. Thank You so much Lata, this post I have been struggling to write for the last two week,because I was wondering how can I describe such a strong emotion in words. It is about what gives you Joy, passion is surely about you and no one else.

  5. very true. passion is what has kept me going even when many around have doubted that or tried to make me not believe that what I love isn’t worth being so passionate about. it’s very personal, and something that I understand the best. I loved your post. 🙂
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    1. So glad you loved the post. Passion is hard to define and easy to understand.

  6. Passion.
    It’s a beautiful thing to have, for it gives us that right drive and nudge we need.
    Yes, it’s normal to question our actions sometimes, but your passion to see it through will always triumph.
    Don’t you think so, Jaibala?
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    1. True without our passion those moments of despair would surely break us.

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