When I Said “No”

Jaibala/ May 12, 2017/ Poetry/ 12 comments

In your eyes, I see disappointment,
And in the lines of your face,
The sadness evident,
For a change something’s not going,
Exactly the way you imagined.

I shudder, I pause, for a moment
I think maybe give in,
For the disappointment and sadness
All I see is fear, not madness
A lonely heart beat, a broken dream

I want to hold you, hug you reassure,
To tell don’t worry or hurry anymore,
A silence deafening screaming so loud,
Yet to tell you, feet are firmly on the ground,
Don’t worry, we shall be fine, remember

And yet I walk away, don’t look back,
Cause I have learned a simple fact,
No hug, no hold, no reassurance,
Can bring back lost, chase away ignorance,
What’s gone is gone,

Your truth is yours, What’s mine is mine,
Neither one of us can seem to cross the line,
Drawn irreversibly, a permanent cross,
While anger breeds, all love lost,
Broken, unfixable pieces of heart,

A chasm deep, now growing wide,
Distance parts the strings of time,
A word too much, too little said,
Nothing heard, confusion felt,
A schism so big, and the bridge too small,

My heart still feels the same for you,
I could never agree with your view,
How do I fix this discord?
You and me, Heart and Mind,
Truth that hurts, Reality that binds,

Love that is hurt, is really lost
Confusion is real, Reality gone,
Truths that always collide,
Fear and anger, the crevice now a crater,
The sound of difference turns to Strife.

About Jaibala

Academically a Microbiologist, I am a Web Columnist for popular magazines and websites, Freelance Writer and a Blogger. Words define me and writing and reading compete to be the love of my life. My biggest belief is that there is something good in everything and I always looks to highlight the best in things. Creative writing is my forte.You can reach me by dropping a mail at contact@jaibalarao.com

12 Comments

  1. Powerful indeed. It hurts when love is lost, things are left unsaid, and distance grows larger. More power to your pen, Jai!
    Modern Gypsy recently posted…Passion projects, personal transformation and overcoming resistanceMy Profile

    1. Thank You so much Jini. Sometimes it is just the way of life and we must learn to say no if needed, irrespective of what we lose.

  2. Lost love, widening distances. How many times have we said no, even when we’ve not wanted to – sometimes we know better than to say yes, I suppose.
    Sreesha recently posted…The Haunting of the Opium DenMy Profile

    1. And sometimes we regret saying yes, and then learn to say no. We forget the power of these two simple words Yes and No

  3. I can sense the conflict, pain and anguish when one has to come to a decision despite all odds. Beautifully worded, evoking all the pathos of a strife. Sometimes one needs to sever relations that stifle and choke the happiness in our lives.
    Kala Ravi recently posted…The White BoxMy Profile

    1. We do life is not as easy. and Happiness is ultimately on our hands only!

  4. Great one Jai. There are some differences which are irreconcilable but we dont lose love for that person
    Anindya Sundar Basu recently posted…Chicken salad with leftover kebabs. Looking back at Poila BoishakhMy Profile

    1. Exactly true! Thanks so much Anin

  5. “Your truth is yours, What’s mine is mine” and sometimes the two can’t see eye to eye. And though it may hurt to differ, you have to be true to yourself, no?
    Loved this!

    1. Absolutely True. You have to learn to stand up for yourself.

  6. The flow, fantastic.
    The emotions, bang on.

    Beautiful come back, Jai.

    1. Thank You Ashu. I needed to brush off the dust on here.

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